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只有把它变成习惯并一直维持
才不会让部落格空了几年后
找不回修图 选图 写作 的动力

想想
这简短的部落格
能让人毫无压力地更新
挺好

I don't feel genuine interest of guidance from my supervisor. However, it is not for me to put the blame on the supervisor, perhaps I have expected too much of them.

I just couldn't help but comparing my supervisor and other supervisor in terms of their continuous support. May be I need come to a realization that, I'm entirely on my own in my topical studies, and the supervisor  and advisor only provide minimal assistance. I should not depend on their assistance.

It hurts me, whilst I felt overwhelmed, trying to cope with the work loads of topical studies that entirely took my time, even my studio time, that the supervisor do not even bother to reply the emails.

It hurts.

But I need to stop complaining, and start working things out with better time management.

A chat with Prof Ezrin

The more I learn about architecture, the more questions I have in mind. I felt as if a kid, and the knowledge of the world is so vast. I felt as if a third person, looking at the world that I don't feel belong. What kind of place exactly I'm living in? What is development? Are we really developing for the better? Who were we? Where are we going to? Why should we throw away the old to impose the new? Is there no value to what we had before?

I went to see my lecturer. He is a prominent figure in the architectural academic field. Whom has seen the rise and fall of the nation, whom has gathered so much wit and wisdom along the years. Yet, so humble, and he claimed his knowledge is however limited.

It was a really good chat with him. We talk about many things, the declining interest on timber houses, the diminishing culture of Kuala Terengganu, the modern Malaysian  and so on. At one point, I felt my heart aches so much I felt tears rolling in my eyes, but I was so glad to have spoken to him, that he has shared his observations and thoughts with me. Perhaps I was looking for answers that resonate with mine.

I felt enlightened, albeit I left with more questions in mind. I know, something has to be done and there must be something that I can do.

// Fighting spirit
// Be grateful and be aware of the less fortunate around you. Sedekah.

ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa, ikut mata leta

Wake up... The world is waiting for you...

When a bird don't fly anymore,

is it still a bird?

A friend of mine said,

I only have one shot, to raise my  own kid. I want to be as prepared as I can, at least mentally for now.

I dont give a damn about what you think about me,

because I don't.

I don't know what I want.

This is depressing.

It's perfectly fine to be wrong.
Take risk.
Just do it.
Do it well.
and if in any case, you failed, then improve!

JIAYOU!! :):):)

They said  if you don't wanna be an arachitect, then why do you care about the grade? I guess.. kiasu-ism? or the fear to fail? OMG! :(

Somebody should write a book on how to keep on chasing time and still feel motivated.

I don't feel like this, anymore. FUCKING ASSSHOLEEEEEEEE

  我不要被你影响

I will be better than you, eventually.

I know I can do better,

I can nail things down no matter how tough it seems,

I will not back off,

and I can handle this.

Good leader always do the best thing for the people by accessing the current situation.

What's good for the people? It's always one's opinion/ perception.

Defend your idea

even if it's with people you love.

But don't defend argument, it do no good for both party.

If you know you are a rare species

Be in the circle of rare by,
share ideas,
sometimes its fun knowing what other rare species think about.

Sometimes I feel like I'm living in my dream.
Life is too good to be real.

I'm pissed off by a couple of irresponsible asshole. Fuck you man.